December 2008

My life has been a roller coaster lately and I am in so much pain right now... I am so hurt by everything that's going on. Things just won't stop pouring on me, there was once V, then there was H and now there is P, when will he stop hurting me? I been getting calls and e-mails telling me things that these women said or these women done with him etc. I am so hurt and so tired, when will he stop hurting me????????????????????????? They all say the only reason he is staying with me is because I been there for him and now his only reason for being there is our baby. It hurts so much to hear such thing, it hurts even more because i know those people won't say those things if he didn't say or do something. I am so confuse to what to do, I been tempted for a while to send this letter I wrote for all of these women and him. I'm just too fed up with everything, ako pa ginagawa ng mga taong yan na masama. They are right sa mga sinasabi nila, kasi kung talagang mahal niya ako dapat hindi niya ako sinasaktan ng ganito. He is still the same, akala ko nagbago na siya few months ago yon pala it is even worst, he just learn to hide things from me and avoid my questions. It hurts to be cheated and lied by the person you love, let alone the father of your own child. Christmas na Christmas ganito ang pakiramdam ko, dapat sana this is one of the happiest days of my life because I have a baby now pero natatabunan ng kalungkutan at sakit ang nararamdaman kong kasiyahan.