Last Summer Long Weekend

Went fishing for the very first time! Fishing was fun, it surely is one of the activities you can really enjoy with good company. People in here fish for the trill of it i think and I now do understand how does it feels like to catch a fish especially the first time lol. It was also priceless seeing the reaction of people like tita Anita catch her first first and of course her husband tito Tonie jumping with the net to help her catch it hahaha that was priceless moment, i wish i had a video to capture it. Oh yeah he did one of the most romantic thing to do, he let me use his jacket because i was freezing and don't have the proper gear. I swear he doesn't buy flowers and all the romantic norm but he is romantic in his own way, it makes me smile just thinking of it. I love spending time beside the lake just seating there beside him waiting for the fish to bite the bait. It was so cold during the night, I was freezing and rain yesterday so we had to leave early. Overall I had a great time with him, his family and their family friends. I hope it won't be my last fishing trip with him.

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Okay na sana as in masaya na sana pero when i got home, ayan na naman that stupid woman who act like an angel in from of him reminded me of the feeling i am trying to forget - the feeling of jealousy, being betrayed and fooled on, and cheated on. She slap in my face how he can never introduce me to their friends and how he will never left her no matter what... it hruts that he doesn't and did not believe me even the first time i told him that she contacts me just to remind me over and over again that there is still her... I just want it to stop but it keeps coming back. i thought it is over but obviously it is not, he made his decision to still pursue their friendship(if u can call it that) regardless if i will be hurt... ang tanga tanga ko talaga grabe, i really dont know what to do and which direction to take.. it hurts so bad and here i am dwelling and crying again... i want this to stop. i hope it will stop hurting me.... i am really confuse of who to believe and what to believe anymore.. i still don't understand her purpose why she acts the way she does, he seem to have a totally different impression of her though, ... maybe i am holding on to someoen I should have let go long time ago... I pray for God to please enlighten me, give me the courage and open my eyes to see where to take my life from here, and please fix my broken heart, please don't let any evil thoughts in my head... please help me get back to my feet and become the woman worthty of someone's unconditional love...